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I have an issue. I keep trying to write scenes in my novel. But I can't actually write a scene in the correct order it would seem. I start with a sketching of an idea, an image, a statement, an outline, then I start to colour in what happened before and what will happen in the future all colouring and detailing the initial image. It's a dreadful habit for me to write like because I despise when a tv show or a book immediately loses me because they are too caught up in their own indelible images, I prefer things unfolding around me gradually and my own mind assisting with the shading and details of the scene as they occur. I just can't seem to write a scene from the beginning to the end in one go. It has to be a slap in the face first then darting back and forth until everything makes sense, in my head and on the page, it's like a painting that gradually builds up with more texture as it goes... I can't keep writing like this, it just doesn't make sense, I'm close to giving up entirely at this point. If I restructure anything I just delete massive tracts of it until it no longer makes sense and that first striking image is forever extinguished. This is what I get for over-thinking things.