I want to say that I am feeling better this month, I feel like every time I write this I'm sad. but I want to say that I have good and sad moments. My mood bounces back and forth depending on how much I've slept or eaten. It's fine but I'm a bit worried about baby teething, again, I swear to god, this had better be the last lot of teeth, how many more teeth could she possibly need, I mean really? Also coursework deadline is next week thankfully. That has been hard.
I will say that my foray into Twitch has been, I guess more intense than I anticipated. I have managed, for a really long time, to maintain a somewhat healthy approach to people and relationships in real life. It took me a really long while to feel okay not like a failure when it came to human interactions. Now it feels like I'm re-learning all that again with Twitch. I'm such an insecure person and it takes me a long time to process things, this much I know about myself. So once again I'm vacillating between regretting everything I do and say and also feeling like everything is going so super well until the moment has passed and I'm alone with my thoughts. None of this makes sense... I'm just enjoying it but I'm also constantly terrified I'm doing something wrong. It's a heady mix and I know I'll find a balance. As with everything else, it takes time.
May
1/5 Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within (2001)
2/5 Barry (1) Teenage (2013)
5/5 Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) Moon Knight (3)
6/5 Death on the Nile (2022)
9/5 Bringing up Baby (1938)
11/5 Barry (1) Savages (2012)
12/5 In the Aisles (2018)
13/5 Saving Face (2004)
15/5 The Worst Person in the World (2021)
19/5 Burn Burn Burn (2015)
19/5 Austin Powers: International Man of Mystery (1997)
21/5 Zero Fucks Given (2021)
23/5 Ali & Ava (2021)
25/5 Ishtar (1987)
29/5 Stranger Things: Season 4 (1)
30/5 Barry (3) Seth Meyers: Lobby Baby (2019)
