November 2023

 It's December somehow. It's another year nearly done, we have advent calendars and there's a blanket of snow outside, we have a 5 month old and a very excited toddler. I don't know how life just keeps chugging along and we're managing, it's hard but we're still here. I couldn't do this without my husband. He is my rock.

Would you believe me if I told you I actually got bored of Big Brother and missed a few episodes and then just didn't watch the last week? Well that happened. I really wanted my percentage of movies directed by women to be higher this year so I went pretty hard searching them out. It's been a challenge and it's kept me busy. Oh, also I saw Poor Things at the local film festival, I put the kids down and drove through an hour in the dark on my own (I hate driving) watched the movie after being frisked for filming devices and then drove back to get home for midnight. It was a very lonely very weird experience as I can't really talk to anyone about it. I'm holding out for a wider release. I can't wait for it to be a big conversation. 

November

1/11 Elles (2011) Wingwomen (2023) The Great British Bake Off (1)
2/11 Past Lives (2023) Let the Sunshine In (2017) Big Brother (2)
3/11 Madame Claude (2021) Quiz Lady (2023) Big Brother (1)
4/11 NYAD (2023) Poor Things (2023)
5/11 Locked In (2023) Fingerprints (2023) Big Brother (1)
6/11 Widows (2018) Battle of the Sexes (2017) 65 (2023)
7/11 Beast (2022) Plan B (2021)  Big Brother (2)
8/11 The Space Between (2021) Hidden Strike (2023) Dumb Money (2023)
9/11 The Marvels (2023) Racer and the Jailbird (2017)
10/11 A Haunting in Venice (2023) The Killer (2023)
11/11 Petite Maman (2021) My Cousin Rachel (2017) Foe (2023)
12/11 She Came to Me (2023) Paradise Highway (2022)
13/11 Valley Girl (1983) Raising Arizona (1987)
14/11 Anatomy of a Fall (2023) Saint Omer (2022)
15/11 True Things (2021) Watcher (2022)
16/11 Happiness for Beginners (2023)
17/11 Green Street (2005) Uptown Girls (2003)
18/11 Matinee (1993) The Crown (1)
19/11 It Snows in Benidorm (2020) Thomas & Friends: Race for the Sodor Cup (2021) Call Me Chihiro (2023) The Crown (1)
20/11 Resident Evil: Degeneration (2008) Resident Evil: Damnation (2012) Resident Evil: Vendetta (2017)
21/11 Resident Evil: Death Island (2023) Sick Girl (2023) Little Miss Sunshine (2006)
22/11 Renfield (2023) Great British Bake Off (1)
23/11 Sleepover (2004) D.E.B.S. (2004) Herbie Fully Loaded (2005)
24/11 In Search of a Midnight Kiss (2007) War Machine (2017) The Crown (1)
25/11 The Legacy of a Whitetail Deer Hunter (2018) Frank (2014) Doctor Who: The Star Beast (1)
26/11 The American Friend (1977) Mafia Mamma (2023)
28/11 Wish (2023) 37 Seconds (2019)
29/11  Mothering Sunday (2021) Seeing Allred (2018)
30/11 My Friend from the Park (2015) Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret. (2023)

October 2023

 I've settled into a system where I can watch at least two movies a day. They are all on my phone and I watch them intermittently when I'm holding the baby either feeding her with a bottle or rocking her to sleep. She's not well today, I'm so tired and worried. But I still find time to shut it all out and dip in and out of other places, other countries, other times, other worlds. It's a distraction, even if it's in short bursts.

Big Brother has started again. What is this? 20 years ago? Who am I?

October

1/10 Source Code (2011)
3/10 Up in the Air (2009) The Creator (2023) After Everything (2023)
4/10 The Great British Bake Off (1)
6/10 Fair Play (2023) Nothing Sacred (1937)
7/10 A Futile and Stupid Gesture (2018)
8/10 Le Week-End (2013)
9/10 Totally Killer (2023) Big Brother: Launch Night (1)
10/10 A Night at the Roxbury (1998) The Nanny Diaries (2007) Big Brother (1)
11/10 Assassin Club (2023) Naked Singularity (2021) Big Brother (1)
12/10 The Boogeyman (2023)  The Great British Bake Off (1)
13/10 Factory Girl(2006) Big Brother (2)
14/10 Barbie (2023) 
15/10 Call Jane (2022) Big Brother (1)
16/10 The Stronghold (2021) The Burial (2023) Big Brother (1)
17/10 Mr. Roosevelt (2017) Showing Up (2022) 
18/10 Mona Lisa and the Blood Moon (2021) The Great British Bake Off (1)
19/10 Our Kind of Traitor (2016) No Hard Feelings (2023) Big Brother (2)
20/10 Reality (2023) Strange Way of Life (2023) BlackBerry (2023) Big Brother (1)
21/10 Amsterdam (2022) Asteroid City (2023)
22/10 Good Night, and Good Luck. (2005) Maximum Truth (2023)
23/10 The Sparks Brothers (2021) If You Were the Last (2023)
24/10 Of Human Bondage (1934) The Kill Room (2023) Big Brother (2)
25/10 Olivia (1951) The Other Zoey (2023) The Great British Bake Off (1)
26/10 Young & Beautiful (2013) The Royal Hotel (2023) Big Brother (2)
27/10 Return to Seoul (2022) Big Brother (1)
28/10 The Last Letter from Your Lover (2021) Pain Hustlers (2023)
29/10 Passages (2023) Sun Dogs (2017) Big Brother (1)
30/10 Missing (2023) Joy Ride (2023) Big Brother (1)
31/10 Five Nights at Freddy’s (2023) Sympathy for the Devil (2023) I Wish (2011) Big Brother (1)

September 2023

I keep forgetting to do this but I know that I will feel better in years to come being able to look back at all of this and seeing everything laid out. Seeing if I remember watching these things. How I felt at the time. Tracking whether the particular day I wrote these posts were good or bad. Knowing there would always be a mix of everything and that my days are so confusing at the moment. Mostly just tiring. Baby is 3 months old, we reached 100 days recently, it felt like a big deal but we just breezed through. We seem to be breezing through all the big moments. The little one just keeps getting bigger and more smiley. It's lovely and exhausting.

Wes Anderson released a bunch of shorts based on Roald Dahl shorts at the end of the month and they were lovely.

September

1/9 50 First Dates (2004)

3/9 Babylon (2022)

4/9 The Stepfather (2009) Argo (2012)

5/9 Passages (2023) Medusa Deluxe (2022)

6/9 The Nice Guys (2016)

7/9 Happy Ending (2023) A Good Person (2023)

8/9 Magic Mike XXL (2015) Lovelace (2013)

9/9 Pleasure (2021)

10/9 Best Sellers (2021) Women Talking (2022)

11/9 Wham! (2023) Appropriate Behavior (2014)

12/9 TÁR (2022) 

13/9 Everybody Loves Jeanne (2022)

15/9 Drive My Car (2021) Love at First Sight (2023)

17/9 Spin Me Round (2022)

18/9 Triangle of Sadness (2022) 

19/9 Emily (2022)

22/9 Crystal Fairy & the Magical Cactus (2013) Nasty Baby (2015)

23/9 Help (2021)

24/9 Two Lovers (2008)

25/9 Paycheck (2003) Fool’s Paradise (2023)

26/9 Please Baby Please (2022)

27/9 The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar (2023) The Great British Bake Off (1)

28/9 A Woman Under the Influence (1974) The Swan (2023)

29/9 The Rat Catcher (2023)

30/9 Poison (2023)

August 2023

 Baby is two months old, it's been a rough few weeks. I don't have the energy or the enthusiasm to watch much but I try. I really try. My birthday felt like the biggest none-event. I just wanted to cry. Some day, things will get easier. I will find time to just be and I will learn to enjoy my own company again. Until then... I'll do what I have to in order to keep chugging along.

August

1/8 Love Island Finale (1) Oppenheimer (2023)
8/8 You Hurt My Feelings (2023)
9/8 Searching for Sugar Man (2012)
10/8 Barb & Star go to Vista Del Mar (2021)
11/8 After Everything (2018) Red, White & Royal Blue (2023)
13/8 Heart of Stone (2023) Look Who’s Talking (1989)
14/8 Kicking and Screaming (1995) The Peacemaker (1997)
17/8 Bastille Day (2016)
29/8 Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves (2023)
31/8 She Said (2022) You Are So Not Invited to My Bat Mitzvah (2023)

June & July 2023

 Can't believe I slept on June along with July. Well I can. Baby arrived on 1st July and all I've done is watch Love Island and Cillian Murphy movies since. I could have done more. I miss sleeping. But I know things will get easier. I hope that's the case. I'll try and keep my progress when I can. Just keep chugging along and all that.

June

5/6 Love Island (1)
6/6 The King’s Daughter (2022) Love Island (1)
8/6 Bros (2022) Love Island (1)
9/6 Causeway (2022) Love Island (2)
10/6 Creed III (2023)
11/6 Throw Momma from the Train (1987) Love Island (1)
12/6 Bones and All (2022) Awakenings (1990)
13/6 Love Island (2) God’s Own Country (2017)
14/6 Love Island (1)
15/6 Cop Land (1997) Love Island (1)
16/5 Love Island (1)
18/6 Flamin’ Hot (2023) Love Island (1)
19/6 Greatest Days (2023) Love Island (1)
20/6 The Lost King (2022) Lyle, Lyle, Crocodile (2022) Love Island (1)
21/6 Extraction 2 (2023) Love Island (1)
22/6 Secret Invasion (1) How to Marry a Millionaire (1953)
23/6 Love Island (1)
24/6 Love Island (1)
26/6 Love Island (1)
29/6 Love Island (3) The Tragedy of Macbeth (2021) I Give it a Year (2013)

July

3/7 Love Island (2)
4/7 Love Island (1)
5/7 Love Island (1)
6/7 Love Island (1)
7/7 Love Island (1)
8/7 Love Island (1)
10/7 Love Island (1)
11/7 Love Island (1)
12/7 Love Island (1)
13/7 Love Island (1)
14/7 Love Island (1)
15/7 Love Island (1)
17/7 Love Island (1)
18/7 Love Island (1)
19/7 Love Island (1)
20/7 Love Island (1)
21/7 Love Island (1)
22/7 Love Island (1)
24/7 Love Island (1)
25/7 Love Island (1) Red Eye (2005)
26/7 Love Island (1) Free Fire (2016) The Edge of Love (2008)
27/7 Love Island (1) In Time (2011) Anna (2019)
28/7 Love Island (1) Peacock (2010)
29/7 Love Island (1)
31/7 Love Island (1) Inception (2010)

May 2023

 We moved house and I'm in my last month of my pregnancy. It's all happening at once. I'm knackered. But I'm laid on a sofa in my new home and I've finished work so I'm on leave now. I should be able to relax but who knows. I can't wait to meet my second daughter.

Succession and Barry finished. I enjoyed them both. Looking at the past month feels like a different person was watching all that stuff.

May

1/5 Succession (1) Barry (1)
2/5 In Bruges (2008) Welcome to Wrexham (1)
3/5 Severance (1) Ted Lasso (1) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
5/5 Ticket to Paradise (2022) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
6/5 Beautiful Disaster (2023) THE ROYAL CORONATION Taken (2008) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
8/5 Succession (1) Barry (1) Rye Lane (2023) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
9/5 Severance (1) Welcome to Wrexham (3)
11/5 Minority Report (2002)
12/5 Austenland (2013) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
15/5 Succession (1) Barry (1)  Mrs Harris Goes to Paris (2022) Mogul Mowgli (2020) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
17/5 Antman and the Wasp: Quantumania (2023) The Quick and the Dead (1995) Welcome to Wrexham (2)
18/5 Ted Lasso (1) Severance (1) Time Trap (2017)
19/5 Guardians of the Galaxy vol 3 (2023) The Mexican (2001) Welcome to Wrexham (1)
20/5 The Five Devils (2022) Hackers (1995)
22/5 Succession (1) Air (2023) Barry (1)
23/5 Maybe I Do (2023)
26/5 Nope (2022)
27/5 The Whole Nine Yards (2000)
28/5 Lover Come Back (1961)
30/5 Deep Blue Sea (1999)
31/5 Forgetting Sarah Marshall (2008)

April 2023

I'm passed the 30 weeks mark in my pregnancy. It's all downhill from here and the belly is getting bigger and I'm getting more and more tired. But we're on our way. There was a trip to the hospital because she might have shifted position but I couldn't feel her, but she was okay. I just want everything to be okay. I'm just waiting for everything to change again. That's how it is.

I've got a lot of TV shows at the moment but no real focus. Trying to relax but there's a lot of bank holidays this month and it's hard with a toddler.

April

2/4 The Bear (1) Murder Mystery 2 (2023)
3/4 The Mandalorian (1) Tetris (2023)
4/4 Notting Hill (1999)
6/4 Emily the Criminal (2022)
8/4 Succession (1) The Mandalorian (1) BEEF (1)
9/4 BEEF (3) Super Mario Bros. (1993)
10/4 BEEF (3)
11/4 Succession (1) BEEF (3)
14/4 High Society (1956)
15/4 Wobble Palace (2018)
16/4 Severance (1) Ted Lasso (2)
17/4 Ted Lasso (1)
18/4 Don’t Worry Darling (2022)
19/4 Barry (2)
20/4 The Mandalorian (1) Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: Once & Always (2023)
21/4 Sheng Wang: Sweet and Juicy (2022) The Mandalorian (1)
22/4 Ghosted (2023)
23/4 Severance (1)
24/4 Succession (1) Barry (1)
25/4 Page Eight (2011)
26/1 Ted Lasso (1)
27/4 John Mulaney: Baby J (2023)
29/4 THE LION KING: MUSICAL The Pervert’s Guide to Ideology (2012)
30/4 Looney Tunes: Back in Action (2003)

March 2023

Six months into pregnancy and it's getting to that point where I'm starting to dip into that familiar territory of existential dread. I'm starting to recall how my previous experiences overwhelmed me and I'm trying my best to not be afraid. I just can't help it though. I'm scared.

Finally Love Island is over! Part of my routine has been expunged and I'd like to say I feel a loss but it wasn't a good series. I rewatched The Bear with my partner and I maintain it's the best show I've seen in a long time, probably on par with Barry.

March

1/3 The Mandalorian: Season 3 (1) The Independent (2022) Love Island (1)

2/3 Your Place or Mine (2023) Love Island (1)
3/3 Elvis (2022)
4/3 Love Island (2)
5/3 Love Island (1) 
6/3 Love Island (1) The Last of Us (1)  American Gigolo (1980)
7/3 Love Island (1)
8/3 Love Island (1) The Bear (1) The First Wives Club (1996)
9/3 Love Island (1)
10/3 65 (2023)
11/3 Conversations with Other Women (2005)
12/3 Luther: The Fallen Sun (2023)
13/3 The Last of Us (1) Love Island (2) Sexy Beast (2000) The Mandalorian (1)
14/3 Somebody I used to Know (2023)
15/3 In the Loop (2009)
17/3 The Bear (1) Ted Lasso: Season 3 (1) The Mandalorian (1)
18/3 The Living Daylights (1987)
19/3 Top Hat (1935)
21/3 Boston Strangler (2023)
23/3 Willy’s Wonderland (2021)
24/3 John Wick: Chapter 4 (2023)
25/3 Ted Lasso (1) Relative Values (2000)
27/3 The Bear (1) Succession: Season 4 (1) The Mandalorian (1)
30/3 The Guard (2011)

February 2023

Still chugging along, still pregnant. I keep saying that to myself. Even though I've been through this before and I have a very rambunctious toddler hugging a stuffed kangaroo to sleep upstairs, I still wake up every morning and have to remind myself. The belly is getting bigger, I can feel limbs moving around inside of me, the heartburn has started earlier and it's driving me a bit mad already. I don't want to be chugging from a bottle of Gaviscon but it's going to happen. I just have this nagging feeling that something could go wrong. For the most part I'm okay but I can't help but worry.

I'm watching Love Island and it makes me feel dirty.

February

1/2 Love Island (1)  Teen Wolf: The Movie (2022)
2/2 Love Island (1) Groundhog Day (1993)
3/2 Love Island (1) You People (2023)
4/2 Love Island (1) Top Secret! (1984)
5/2 Top Gun: Maverick (2022)
6/2 Love Island (1) Happy Valley (1) The Last of Us (1) Sharp Stick (2022)
7/2 Love Island (1)
8/2 Love Island (1)Shotgun Wedding (2022)
9/2 Love Island (1) Actual People (2021)
10/2 Love Island (1) Magic Mike’s Last Dance (2023)
11/2 Love Island (1) The Last of Us (1)
13/1 Love Island (1) You: Season 4 (2) The Bear (1) From Dusk Till Dawn (1996)
14/2 Love Island (1)
15/2 Love Island (1)
16/2 Love Island (1) Black Panther: Wakanda Forever (2022) Gregory’s Girl (1980)
17/2 Love Island (1)
18/2 Love Island (1) Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping (2016)
19/2 Love Island (1) Sleeping with the Enemy (1991)
20/2 The Last of Us (1) Love Island (1) Searching for Sugar Man (2012)
22/2 Love Island (2) Together Together (2019)
23/2 Love Island (2)
24/2 Love Island (1)
26/2 Shallow Grave (1994) Love Island (1)
27/2 The Last of Us (1) Sharper (2023) Cocaine Bear (2023)
28/2 Love Island (2) Corsage (2022)

January 2023

 I guess it wouldn't be bad luck to say I'm nearly 20 weeks pregnant. Yep, there's another one on the way. I'm so tired but I'm excited. To boot, we're moving house and it's going to be a big change.

Sometimes I lie down and it feels like I'm at the top of a water slide. The water is gushing past me and I can feel the momentum building behind me. I'm just waiting, with my eyes closed to take the plunge.

Winter Love Island is on and it's terrible. I continue to watch it.

January

2/1 Happy Valley (1)
3/1 Paris, Texas (1984)
4/1 Dead Pixels (1) The Menu (2022)
5/1 Dead Pixels (1)
7/1 Aftersun (2022)
9/1 Dead Pixels (1) Four Weddings and a Funeral (1994)
10/1 Don’t Make Me Go (2022)
14/1 The Banshees of Inisherin (2022)
15/1 Where the Crawdads Sing (2022)
16/1 The Last of Us (1) Happy Valley (1)
17/1 Love Island (1)
18/1 Love Island (1) X (2022)
19/1 Love Island (1) Last Night (2010)
20/1 Love Island (1) The Nest (2020)
21/1 Love Island (1) Forces of Nature (1999)
22/1 The Bear (1)
23/1 The Last of Us (1) Love Island (1) The Italian Job (1969)
24/1 Happy Valley (1) Love Island (1)
25/1 Love Island (1) Sunshine (2007)
26/1 Love Island (1)
27/1 Love Island (1) Bank of Dave (2023)
28/1 Love Island (1)  Marry Me (2022)
30/1 Love Island (1)  Happy Valley (1) The Last of Us (1)
31/1 Love Island (1) 

December 2022

 It's the end of another year. A time for reflection. Mostly just tired out and trying to cope with a toddler who doesn't understand why they haven't been to nursery in over a week. She's doing well. She's so active and talkative and amazing. She never ceases to amaze me.

I can't say much else, I've tried to catch up on movies this month but there's still so many more I want to watch. There have been a couple TV shows I've started and given up on and a couple I've happily finished, but I've decided not to stick with stuff if I'm not invested. I would say Andor and The Bear were excellent TV.

December 2022

2/12 Scary Movie 3 (2003)
3/12 Andor (3)
5/12 Lady Chatterly’s Lover (2022) Andor (3)
6/12 Wednesday (1)
7/12 Wednesday (2) Rogue One: A Star Wars Story (2016)
8/12 Violent Night (2022)
10/12 Red Eye (2005)
12/12 The Traitors (4) Barbarella (1968)
13/12 The Traitors (2)
14/12 The Traitors (1)  Jingle All the Way (1996)
15/12 Scrooged (1988)
16/12 The Traitors (1) The Bear (4)
17/12 The Bear (4)
18/12 The Drop Out (1) The Rental (2020)
21/22 Home Alone (1990)
22/12 The Traitors (2)
23/12 The Traitors (1)
24/12 The Muppets Christmas Carol (1992)
26/12 Tokyo Godfathers (2003)
27/12 Glass Onion: A Knives Out Mystery (2022)
29/12 Bodies Bodies Bodies (2022)
30/12 White Noise (2022)
31/12 Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022)